Life has never seemed as fluid to me as it does now. This could be due to Landmark, but I feel it also has to do with all the changes around me. Artemis moving to the city with Chris, Kate moving in with George and opening the restaurant, Jeff moving in with Meliss and Annabug, my parents are moving to TN soon, my sister bought a house, and Alex and I are just... us. Sometimes I think my mom makes sense when she says we ought to move in together. I have thought about it, I mean the logical way, not the "it will solve all your problems" way that my mom tries to pull. That is crap. It would not solve any thing and it is absolutely sick to imply that it would. The woman has no idea how lucky she is that I have a head on my shoulders and not just a set of ears.

I am enjoying the fluidity some because it gives me the ability to do things I did not before (go to NYC without much thought or notice, visit a tiny baby, go to Scotia and eat wonderful food I did not have to cook), but at the same time I do feel trapped in my lack of change. On one hand I have the insights from the forum which are giving me the ability to be cool with all this change and not freak out, but a the same time I feel like I should be doing more. Some times I find myself wondering if Alex feels the same way, but then I stop because that will not help any thing. Mostly I just need to get a move on getting a job, closing my account at the National Bank of Coxsackie, and figuring out housing after September because as Alex's mother put it, "That's a tough situation". I love her.